- Meditation: (Write about it here)
a. Center your energy, ground and breathe deeply. (1 minute daily)
b. Expand from the inside out. (5 minutes daily)
c. Say hello to your special spot and expand your “I deserve” energy. Notice the healing colors. (5 minutes daily)
2. Growth Period:
What have you experienced as a result of the deep healing on deserving that we did in class? How is your week going? What emotions have come up? What memories? Do you have any new insights about the healing process? Is your "deserving" energy of wellness sticking and integrating into your body? How is this week different than any other in the past? Write about it here in one small paragraph or less.
3. AP:
Discuss the above #2 with your AP. (10 minutes each maximum) Write about your AP’s growth period here in one small paragraph or less.
4. Always check for comments on last weeks home-play blog.
1.
A)The meditation has been wonderful for me. Simply taking this time every day (even just the one minute) has been so supportive for my stamina, stress levels and my ability to stay in my sweet spot intuitively.
☝ B)This has directly supported my deserving sensations and I am feeling an expansive and strong flowing energy of worthiness and self love. This exercise has been deeply supportive in transmuting the shame around being my fullness and receiving my own bigness of spirit. For me, this week the colors have been very consistent and clear. There’s a beautiful and vibrant green with a sparkly, periwinkle outside edge.
2. I answered some of these questions in the first question, but this week has been very different than the last few. This week has a new sensation of freedom and ease to it. I’ve been taking care of myself and my family on a new level as well. I’m noticing I’m valuing my physical body instead of treating her like a hassle.
This deserving sensation is definitely integrating in a new way into my body. My awareness around my healing process is that I need not dwell or focus too long on my issues, painful memories or the “muck”. In fact, I am realizing I move quite quickly and the most affective way for me to fully move through something is to stay unattached and as neutral as I can (to the sensation while still fully feeling all of my feelings) so it can be “shaken loose” easier. If that makes sense?
3. This week’s AP meeting was powerful. It was concise and we followed instructions implicitly. Her growth period is a deep and somewhat sorrowful one right now. She’s truly healing and remembering things that she experienced as a child that taught her she was “crazy” and “too big” and she’s unraveling these beliefs and stepping into her worthiness for deserving.
4. Will do now.
1. I was able to do these meditations every day but one. What I found is how difficult it is for me to get grounded. As I go through the grounding steps I fold forward and round my front body. In order to realign during my practice I have been needing to consciously correct my poster. I have been noticing throughout the week I have been wanting to sit slouched. I have thoughts of what is going on here but for the sake of keeping this short, I will say to myself “i deserve” when I notice my torso rolling into a ball and I have been straightening out.
2. I have many new insights from this weeks practice. I’ll share two so I can keep this to a small paragraph. First using “I deserve” fills me up or back up with a higher vibrational energy. Which in turns allow’s me to feel the possibility in the impossible. Well what I think is impossible when I feel I don’t deserve. Second when I fill myself up from the inside out I am noticing that impacted foreign energy that I mentioned in class in my back body. I have many tight muscle issues that hold me back from reaching some physical goals and they all are in the back part of my body. Amazing. So needless to say I have been enjoying working with inflating myself with me, releasing this impaction and doing it again. Feels like this will be a process.
3. I met with my ap partner. When we talked we did not have much time to work with these tools. My ap partner shared the feeling of “i deserve” and how they believed this could really help. They shared a tendency they have with certain people in there lives where they are lowering there energy/spirit to a level at which they do not want to be at to match these lower energies. This is not a vibrational match for where they want to be. They are ready to see how this tool will help them maintain a higher vibration energy around these lower vibrations. They also shared about the other topics.
4. Are we suppose to reply to the comments from you?
1. Have been doing the meditation daily. Feel much more grounded when I expand from the inside out. Healing color is yellow. Feel like I am gradually releasing negative emotions, blockages each day. Blockages seem to be located between 3rd and 4th chakras.
2. A lot of blockage of the chakras in the heart area. Healing color is yellow. Seem to have a lot of issues with deserving. A lot of guilt, shame, sadness, lack of worthiness, effecting my ability to be happy and allow abundance. Seems to be clearing with each meditation, but seems it may be an ongoing issue to clear all these emotions/blockages. Actually having a very good week, abundance wise, and staying positive. Watched “The Secret”, seems to have elevated my vibration/frequency, feeling good.
3. Communicated with my AP over the weekend. He has decided to withdraw from the program. Did not discuss homework, but did wish him well. Have appointment set up already, for next week with my AP.
4. Checked for comments.
1. Meditation:
a. I have found that grounding my energy, through deep breathing, has become “almost” a natural skill set for me that I am readily using and enjoying. This has become such a simple and yet very profoundly effective tool. In practicing this technique, I am still amazed, however, at how much I still catch myself “outside of my body”. Nonetheless, I am really please with how well this is becoming a part of my nature.
b. Expanding from the inside out, I have found, is a bit of a misnomer. At least for me, this has not felt natural without first opening up to receiving “flow” from God and then fluffing out. Practicing for a full 5 minutes started off as a challenge and is getting easier as this week progresses. I have enjoyed this feelings of peace and self-empowerment that come with this exercise.
c. I was amazed at how readily my mind could go to my “special spot”. I realized that an energetic imprint, like a groove, forms in humans from emotional baggage. This is very similar to muscle memory. It was like my spots just drank up the healing nectar of my healing color and healing “i deserve energy”. As a result of this newly learned healing practice, I will be reminded to encourage my clients to adopt similar energy practices for deep and lasting energy health.
2. Growth Period:
Through this practicing of new energy skills this last week, I am re-affirmed of the mandate to put self-care above all else. Without truly, and deeply loving yourself, you can not truly or deeply love another. This is not something to be taken lightly or thought of as “selfish” as is so often stated in our society. This old belief of self care can “wait” and I must do for everyone in my life first, I have been actually laying to rest. I mean more than just “lip service” but walking my talk and putting action to my beliefs. It really dawned on me in a very new and profound way this past week that I am teaching my children how to self-love based on what I am doing and not what I am saying I or they “should” be doing. I realize I am stating the obvious, but for whatever reason, this just hit me smack in the head this past week. If we all loved ourselves, in the manner in which we want others to love us, what a different world we would create. As a result, my new attitude is, “I deserve” self care (love) in the most awesome way and so does everyone. Self care is not a luxury, it is a necessity to living life and being alive!
3. AP:
My AP expressed her newfound “I deserve” energy tool with excitement and amazement at just how crazy effective and fast her learning curve was. She was able to practice this tool very shortly after our class, at a family gathering. Her communication with family was from a more grounded and expanded self which allowed her to see them in new eyes and from a higher perspective. Thus making for a more enjoyable visit, particularly with her more challenging relatives, which we all have. I was moved and encouraged by her experience!
4. Done
1. Meditation:
Did so far 4 times.
– Grounding is becoming easier with an image of roots spread as wide as the North American continent and jotting deeply into the heart of the earth. I accompany this with hand gestures that suggest energy moving. I do it standing up with knees bent in horse stance.
– Expanding I also accompany with hand gestures of spreading and sending towards the edges of my being in all directions. Sometimes there is a light green or white hue in the back of my awareness.
– I deserve energy: Mostly I end up voicing various sentences and that feels really strong and strengthening in my being. Like: I deserve to be alive. I deserve to absorb nourishment. I deserve to be healthy. etc I missed seeing a color with this section however so far.
2. Growth Period:
I experienced a shift: I connected with the feeling that I deserve to be alive, to be incarnated in this body and reality, to be healthy. The word “deserve” has a connotation of being a victim for me but after shedding that notion and opting to play along, it turned out that I have indeed a great deal of negative believes about what I do or don’t deserve. The change is profound. I allowed myself to ask for help, and I received massive help in form of guidance from three different sources. They all complement each other and give me the feeling that the guides and spirits know of what they tell us and coordinate their efforts to help me/us find the light we need to grow and become available for guidance. No new memories came up but through a reading with Robin, the theme of how I chose to oppress myself in this lifetime, the guilt that goes with it, the potential for healing that is buried in this whole story, are all present. I feel deeply grateful for being sick for such a long time, it has become indeed a sacred illness. I feel that I am starting to hear the message my body was broadcasting to me with greater and greater urgency over many years. And now I am in a state of prayer to reclaim my right to be alive, to allow myself to receive nourishment, to allow myself to be a being aware of and in tune with it’s one-ness with Source itself.
3. AP: Done for 10 mins
4. Checked
1. I’ve continued the meditation and I am astounded by the feeling of self love and empowerment. I am also surprised by the different healing colors that showed up.
2. During class, as I was healing my “deserving” energy I experienced my sinuses clear. Continuing the meditation this week, I experienced a nose bleed in the same area, as I blew my nose a sinusy blood clot released. The healing/meditation of feeling deserving and empowered has become at the forefront of my being. It feels like the driving force of my life right now.
3. I discussed my healing experience with my AP. She in turn discussed what she experienced in class and although she understands there is always work to be done, she has chosen to spiritually remain where she is at.
4. Done
1) The meditations have been going well and doing them everyday has been essential in helping with my growth and development.
2) This week my emotions have had an underlying sadness to them Tuesday through Saturday. Saturday was the worst. Sunday I woke up and put extra effort into doing things that make me feel good. A memory that came up around undeserving was from the age 11 at summer camp. I had a intuitive emotional informational hit about one boy and an issue with his father that he was carrying. I said something to him about it to comfort him, but instead he was completely caught off guard and called me a witch! witch! witch! pointed finger and all. I felt ashamed and ostracized for using my insight to connect with someone. I felt unconfident from the boys reaction and negative attention from my peers from following my intuition and “being wrong” to do so. My deserving wellness is moving in and out of me like a DNA strand or serpent spiraling; Im getting more of a sense of it. This week is different because I’ve dropped another layer of ego and am gaining more confidence slowly but surely.
3) My AP had an Amazing week because her growth period was held through being empowered by the safety and nourishment of her immediate family. Being home for a visit made them feel better in their body now more than anytime this past year and more deserving of their own self care. The feelings of being undeserving, ashamed, guilty, Big, (energetically) and loud have been cleared with the help of the Violet flame and the practices from class. They have grown this week into feeling more glorious flowing energy moving through them. The COLOR of deservingness for them this week has been a brilliant green and super vibrant periwinkle.
4) Correction from last week- I meant to put “my control issues have been up…