- Feeling Meditation. 5 minutes per day. Write how it's going here.
2. Find a time this week where you want to escape from uncomfortable feelings or body chemistry with food, drink, smoke, alcohol, caffeine, drugs, sugar, being too active, movie watching, etc., and use your breath and Feeling Meditation tool instead. What happened? Were you able to control your addiction or need to numb? Write about it here.
3. Call your AP. Set your timer for 7 minutes each to speak. Do NOT exceed this time and boundary. When you are finished with the 14 minutes, thank them and hang up. Can you let go of their energy, the call and have good boundaries? Discuss the above assignment (2), what you learned, how it relates to you and your experiences of doing the "Feeling" meditation. Where and how can you change your life for the better in terms of living more from a place of presence and less from a place of escapism and numbing.
4. Check your Home-Play BLOG from last week and see if I made any comments. Thank you!
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!. Ordered the book, couldn’t put it down, have read first several chapters.
2. Program A
3.I did not receive the Google Doc invite. My gmail is [email protected]
4. Have not spoken to AP yet, will do so as soon as I receive the Google Doc.
5. I have been doing the meditations at least once per day, feeling much more open, centered, and connected. Thank you!
6. Have listened to the recording of Class Week I, half way through week two.
1. Meditations are going well, energy feeling better with each meditation. More open, more centered, more connected. Before starting the course, I felt completely blocked, no energy flow through the chakras, like there was a cover over my crown chakra, no connection, completely closed off. High anxiety.
2. I have found myself lately feeling alot of anxiety, and stress. I’ve been doing the meditations at least daily, usually multiple times per day. At first noticed my energy was located outside my body, above me. I had been excessively focused on the future, very anxious. Found with the meditations, my energy would come into my body, feel centered in my body, in my chest, more focused on the present, more calm, and under control.
3. Will contact my AP asap after I receive the GoogleDoc.
4. Just submitted homework from last week, will wait for your comments.
1. The feeling meditation for me started late as I didn’t create time to listen to this week’s class until last night. However, this week has been profoundly emotional and deep for me and I have been committed to my daily practice and body tune in. This feels very supportive and similar to the intent of this week’s class. Through my checking in with myself, I am realizing how often I miss tears that long to be expressed and I have had a week filled with many tears.
2. This week I have wanted to escape my feelings a lot. It has been a challenging and emotional week for me in my family and in my work. Challenging and not in a negative way, but literally beautiful, bountiful and expansive. I noticed many feelings of unworthy and not good enough arise. When expansive things are happening in my life, I want to numb, run and hide. It’s almost like I am afraid to show up for all the good. I have wanted more sugar, and more alcohol this week for sure. There were many moments I did just feel, and allow myself to cry, letting go of these cellular memories and creating space for the new. Crying for me has been deeply healing and opening this week, and it seems to be a way I process and release whenever I give myself permission to be still and in meditation. I still chose to numb at times through champagne and sugar (specifically this week cake, lol) but I really feel my higher self and self love encouraging me to feel. It’s not easy, but so much more fulfilling.
3. I am so looking forward to connecting with my assigned AP partner today, and was able to connect with last week’s AP partner (which feels so good to be on track). I was able to have a sweet check in with another student and we practiced this AP assignment as well. It was heart- centered, clean and clear and we both were aware of refinements around numbing and checking out. We also shared in a point of view around plant medicine and supplements that could be viewed as a way to check out or numb. It felt good to feel truth in this for me personally and know that all things have an extreme and a balance and it is up to me to find my own homeostasis with supplements and dietary support.
4. I checked the homeplay blog from yesterday and didn’t have any comments, but will check again today.
1). Feeling meditation 5 minutes per day is going very well. I do this in my morning practice to help set the day and I have noticed during stressful situations I am starting to naturally breath deep and feel. I am noticing that my body is not tensing up and that energized moment is left right there in that moment instead of caring it around with me. This has lead to clearer days.
2). My challenge with eating processed food comes strongly when I am at work. Forget potato chips that’s the least of my worries. I will normally eat anything that is far game. This week I was cautious of two things. First yesterday ate work I at only what I brought to work , minus one chocolate covered almond. Today I woke up joyous, motivated to get going and well just happy for what the day will bring. I am noticing this as a trend since I did a cleanse several weeks ago. What I find fascinating is that on Friday at work there was any amazing spread of processed foods. So I experimented and ate some, not as much as I normally would. It took two days for me to start feeling like myself again.
3) I have an appointment with my ap partner.
4) I checked my home play from last week.
1) I like the feeling meditation for 5 minutes each day it helps me tune in. I feel a lot all the time like the oceans tides going in and out. I get to tune into the frequency’s of my life, wether pleasant or not. Its bringing in more of a language a bigger vocabulary for how I feel and what triggers me good or bad.
2) As I do my homework now Im wanting to escape event hough I just started doing it. The thoughts about doing homework for this class are uncomfortable and make me edgy. The edgy feeling comes from thoughts like, I feel like I’ll be behind in the class because Im busy and ill always be playing catch up. Or I could be doing something else with my time instead of doing the homework. Ive never been good at homework never ahead of the game always waiting till the last minute. Ha! I did reach for a piece of brownie before I started homework because it was a momentary distraction from getting going. But now that Im doing the homework and writing the voices out loud and doing the feeling meditation with it Im able to hold the edgy feeling and hug it instead of dismiss it. I feel empowered by leaning into my feelings. This past week Ive felt really clear about not running away, neglecting or dismissing any feelings. Its been a good start to where I want to be with myself, in tune and present.
3) I did the call with my AP. We didn’t discuss the assignment, but did have good clean boundaries and was able to let go of their energy.
4) Will check the homeplay blog
1. My five minute meditations are “so far so good.” The most powerful one as of yet has been
with our class, immediately after our class I felt spots of back pain. This is my favorite part of
meditation because it’s so easy and, although, I don’t feel the power yet when I do it alone, I
understand the importance and power of it.
2. I’ve been quick to recognize moments I want to eat. I ask myself if I’m really hungry or if I’m
trying to mask something. Those two components alone, I have found to be very powerful and
healing. It was enough to make the “hunger” go away. However, when I include the mediation
it became much more powerful and healing. I am happily surprised!
3. I had a wonderful conversation with my AP. I was able to let go of their energy, however, I did
immediately recognize within myself the need to set clear boundaries. I tried to set up our
timer but was overtaken by conversation. Of course, this was my issue and something I need
to continue to work on.
4. Submitting this assignment before I check my home play, don’t want to lose what I’ve written.
1. I have been practicing and enjoying the feeling meditation. I have found this to be an easy meditation that I look forward to practicing. I will be adding this to my self-care toolkit.
2. I have intentionally put little self-care breaks throughout my day so that at the end of the day, when I am spent (and want to numb out) I am more self loving. Some of the healthier choices I have played with so far have included writing and drinking more water. Funny, or not, this was never about my wanting sugar.
3. Had a lovely connection with my AP and stuck to the boundary although could have easily talked for longer. Disconnected energy well so that felt good since this is a newer skill for myself.
4. I did check the blog and replied. Thank you
Well, I couldn’t tell where to type my answers so I decided to just write in the comment space. I answered # 1 and #2 , then left this space to go back to the top to review question #3. When I got back the comment square with my answers in it was gone.
I guess my biggest challenge in the class is using the computer! I always think it will be just fine and that I can do it. Then I get confused and frustrated , but just do not know what to do about it. I do not know where my answers went for #1 and #2 , but I am going to push the “post comment” and see what happens.
3. I enjoyed my AP call very much. At that point, I had not discovered the “home-play homework page” and was not clear on on the details of the assignment. We introduced ourselves and shared an introduction about our lives. I love to hear about peoples journeys , so I enjoyed it very much. We were aware of the time so kept it short. I will be more mindful on my next call of the things we are suppose to be aware of.
4. I think I have actually figured out how to get around with the homework, home-play assignments. I am assuring myself that I can do this. I was thinking the homework for this week was our AP call until I found the homework page this morning. I usually enjoy getting right to things when I have it to do. I am so sorry I am not getting this in until the day of class. I am sure I will get this all figured out and get with the program. I hope you understand . Some of us seniors are slow learners with computer technology.
1. I was in feeling mode pretty much all the time due to being seriously ill. I got into a state of prayer on Thursday evening at the precise time of the course meeting. Surrender was the next I knew. The essence of the Universe as Unconditional Love revealed itself in how it is penetrating everything, without any conditions. I meditated on that and was in a state of feeling throughout the days following that revelation. I discovered gentleness as well and connected to it throughout the week in my healing process.
2. No cravings except for real hunger this week since I wasn’t eating anything else but bone broth – the liquid only. No addictions that I can detect related to foods or media etc. But one addiction, or rather a default maneuver that I routinely use is negligence in decision making. So instead of eating only a small amount, I may eat quite a lot of one thing over a long period of time till it turns against me. It can be sour cream, honey, rice crackers with avocado and salt etc. no sugars or wheat starches in my diet.
3. Did and kept to the 7 minutes structure. After that we hung up and called again to go into more details since my account would have exceeded 7 minutes. Sharing felt healing to me, I felt heard as well.
4. Done